Reached My Breaking Point

Finally worked out today.... I know its been a while, but a lot has been going on in my life. Work has me going through a loop with shitty hours and hour cuts. And my husband hasn't been working much. Now I'm starting to realize I have a lot to be thankful for. We've never been late on any bills and I should be very thankful to have a job. Its just I've come to a point in my life where I'm not going to put up with any bodies shit at work anymore. I've been way too nice over the years and I've reach my breaking point. With all this in my mind the last few weeks has kept me from living my life. I can't be doing this and getting myself all stressed out, life is too short. Its time to live on and take control of my life.

Finish the First 30 Days of the "Firm 90 Day Rotation"

Finished the first 30 days of the Firm 90 Day Rotation. Very proud of myself. Lost eight pounds so far not bad, one pound a week. Comparing the January 11 pictures, I notice I'm toner. Still have a long ways to go. And I'm not giving up this time.

Food Plan

Well....I haven't been doing very good. Too much valentine candy in the house. Still working out which is very good for me to be doing this for this long period of time. I'm almost a third though the Firm Rotation, just three more workouts. I'm going to take pictures to see if there is any physical results. It's taken me seven weeks to do the first four week workout. But this is okay I'm doing great. I just need to work on the food part. I have to start eating five or more serving of fruits and vegetables a day and stay off the sugar. This how I want to plan my daily food intake:

1. Coffee with plan creamer
2. Greek yogurt
3. Banana and peaches
4. Spinach salad and Greek yogurt
5. Two servings of fruit
6. Dinner
7. Drink eight glasses of water a day.
8. NO SUGAR!! NO JUNK FOOD!!

Redirecting My Brain

Trying real hard to get my head straighten out. It's crazy how bad habits are hard to remove from my head. I was doing so well. Then all sudden these last few days I feel like I'm losing control. I woke up this morning working hard redirecting my brain into positive thinking. Reminding myself "not think about it, just do it." Just do the right thing and not think about all the bad things I'm doing. The more I worry, the worst I do for myself. Keep the positive force.

Live & Learn

I feel like crap today. Live and learn and try not to forget this feeling. I seriously need to eat healthy and clean!! I feel so much better when I do.

Blowing it!

I'm blowing it!! I can't stop eating.... I've got to straighten myself out.

Getting Back on Track

Went out Thursday night, had pizza, chicken wings with fries and lots of beer. It was a lot of fun, but I've been off track since. I also been PMS-ing too. I went to the store today to buy things we needed and chocolate was the first thing on my list. Came home pig out on it and now I'm through. Got everything out of my system (whatever it is that makes me feel like this) and ready to get back on track.

Everything is Working Out

I lost a lot of weight this last weigh in. It must be water loss. But I've cut my sugar intake a lot, about two thirds less. And I've been very loyal to my workouts. Started the 90 Day Firm Rotation. Its probably going to take me 150 days to complete it. Also I modified it to my needs and so far it's been very successful for me.

Keep My Chin Up High

I'm completely exhausted. Have two new bosses at work and it's driving me crazy. I've been working out and doing so well. The true test is dealing with all the stress and keeping up with my workouts.

Doing good!!

One thing I'm finding out is that now that I'm not eating a bunch of crap, I'm not craving it anymore. How simple is this? Well as soon as I get overly tired or bored, I will want to satisfied something. The "something" that I don't even know or understand when I get like that.

Haven't been working out at home the last few days. But I've working my ass off at work and getting plenty of exercise. I work all 8-5's next week I will be working out every morning for sure.

Pictures of me

I know the pictures are not very flattering of me. But I have to post these pictures of me to remind myself how heavy I am.

Feel Good Today

I ate good yesterday. Mainly because I had two teeth pulled yesterday too. But today I found I feel so much better. I'm calmer and thinking a lot clearer too. It's because I didn't fill myself with all that junk and high fat foods. I just need to keep it up and stay eating healthy. I even worked out today too. Yay for me.

Eat Less and Move More

Today I got on the scale and weight 213 pounds. I'm going to loose 50 pounds in eleven months. December 10th I will weigh 163 pounds. I'm not going to count calories or write the foods I eat either. I always set myself up for failure. I'm going to eat healthier. And this time I'm just going to do it and not worry about every little thing. I'm going to eat less and move more.